I’m gonna try for one whole week of not opening Path.
Wish me luck.
cross-posted from my Tumblr blog: ferdifz.tumblr.com via IFTTT.
Originally posted on May 08, 2017 at 10:57AM. [Tumblr direct link]
I think I want to sleep all the time because everything I really want to do I’m not supposed to do, or there’s something else that I should be doing instead, and so I wind up feeling like I don’t want to do anything and so I sleep…
Gubernatorial election day today in Jakarta.
Feeling safe. Unintimidated. Which is good.
Happy voting day, fellow Jakartans! Fellow Indonesians, too! :)
Written as a blog draft/Ello post draft in Evernote at December 06, 2016 at 06:13PM Open in Evernote
Everything will pass. You will make friends elsewhere, and being a pariah in one place won’t hurt much after a while. You will get used to metal in your skin, and then you will stop putting it there, and then the scars will fade, and then so will the memories of them. You will slowly learn how to get out of bed on the days when you’re certain you can’t; you will learn how to ignore the pains in your body; you will learn how to smile the tears out of your eyes in science class. You will grow and have a rebirth of all the things your mind took from you. You will fall in love again. You will remember how to accept love and how to let someone hold you. You will kiss someone and it will feel real. You will look up at the sky and realize that you want to be alive again after years of wishing you wouldn’t wake up. You will open your eyes one morning and everything you gained will be gone; you will open your eyes the next day and realize how beautiful you are as you are brushing your teeth. You will feel true joy for the first time, and in that moment, you will be invincible. You will stand up a little straighter as the months wear away. Everything will pass. It will turn out fine.
Ada seorg teman yg memutuskan sekolah perawat stlh lulus dokter dan bekerja bbrp tahun sbg dokter di sebuah LSM internasional.
Bnyk org mempertanyakan keputusannya.Dia blg,“Mamaku blg ‘yg penting km bahagia.Km bahagia,mama jg bahagia’,maka bodo amat apa kt org lain.”
Nah kalo mamaku, dia nggak bahagia. Paling nggak aku merasa mamaku kecewa sama aku. Umur udah mendekati empat puluh, belum menikah, pekerjaan masih belum mapan.
Jadi gimana caranya semangat?
Mbuh. (Lanjut hidup seadanya.)
Recognize when your mind plays tricks on you, that you may take better control of your mind.
And know that no matter what kind of time bombs mere humans plant in your mind, THEY MEAN NOTHING BEFORE GOD. They have no power. None at all.