You kinda get a sense of how it feels when an ‘other’ calls one of your own children…

You kinda get a sense of how it feels when an ‘other’ calls one of your own children the best, or better, than another of your children, when someone calls one of your works the best and the others are worse or even ugly or something…

When really if you’re creating for the Public (not just the consumer masses, but the Public) ultimately only 10% of your work is going to be acknowledged as “The Best” while 90% goes obscure. For example do you know how many sculptures & photographs Pablo Picasso made during his lifetime? And yet only a handful of his works are known worldwide, and most of them paintings… The same with Leonardo da Vinci. Of course most of you reading this being either cultured persons or professional fine artists already know this.

Be cruel to your ‘art’ children. Letting go is the only way to get better.

Because really everybody is an artist. But fine artists whose fine art _actually communicate_ with the World, that’s rarer.

Everybody is an artists, but the artist whose art actually impacts the world, their art actually communicates with the world effectively. Or at least the art elicits emotions from  people. or something. yadda yadda


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Originally posted on January 08, 2018 at 07:41AM. [Tumblr direct link]

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If I was younger, and still with ample enthusiasm & energy, I would blog about tonight. As it is…

If I was younger, and still with ample enthusiasm & energy, I would blog about tonight. As it is I just… can’t.

I thank God for tonight though. Truly.


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Originally posted on December 25, 2017 at 11:11PM. [Tumblr direct link]

late for workIt pains me to be constantly late for work.Why do I let myself be constantly late for…

late for work

It pains me to be constantly late for work.

Why do I let myself be constantly late for work?

Why do I let myself be pained for being late for work?

Went so I torture myself for my late for work?

Constantly?


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Originally posted on December 21, 2017 at 03:24PM. [Tumblr direct link]

For several days in a row now we’ve been going to our church up to ten o’clock, even midnight,…

For several days in a row now we’ve been going to our church up to ten o’clock, even midnight, doing preparations for Christmas & New Year… It’s been tiring, but also refreshing, to be with family & friends…

I’m just grateful for this privilege we still have, here in Muslim majority Jakarta; others nearby have been unlucky enough to not have peace this holiday season…


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Originally posted on December 09, 2017 at 09:50AM. [Tumblr direct link]

just another insignificant rant on adulting

I’ve grown up fast but then my growth got stunted. Feels like.


I started reading magazines like Time and Reader’s Digest when I was, like, six years old. My physics teacher complimented me in high school that I understood basic concepts so quickly, but then warned that I was having trouble going deeper in my understandings. I went on to spend six years in undergraduate college. (Graduated, too. Barely.) And now I’m almost 37 years old and still living in my mom’s house.

Yeah sure all things considered comparatively speaking I’m making upper middle class income. But working two full-time jobs. Writing mostly from home. But yeah still though.


There are many things I should be grateful for. And I am. But still I also mustn’t delude myself into believing my life is absolutely perfect. Nor that all problems can be solved by taking six hour mid afternoon naps.

I’m exaggerating of course. Heh.


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Originally posted on August 07, 2017 at 04:45AM. [Tumblr direct link]

In my 12-year career I’ve always been afraid of getting fired, and having gone through over 12…

In my 12-year career I’ve always been afraid of getting fired, and having gone through over 12 employers in 12 years it appears obvious that it has been a self-defeating prophecy.

Also I find it quite interesting that it’s been over 12 years since I graduated from college. Quite interesting indeed.


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Originally posted on July 24, 2017 at 10:04AM. [Tumblr direct link]

Should lay off the infosnacks & info-junkfoods. Focus on consuming heavier meals. Actual books…

Should lay off the infosnacks & info-junkfoods. Focus on consuming heavier meals. Actual books in other words. Academic-level textbooks. Not necessarily academia though. But something like David Weinberger’s “Everything Is Miscellaneous” and Zeynep Tukfeci’s “Twitter and Teargas”.


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Originally posted on July 18, 2017 at 07:02PM. [Tumblr direct link]

I really need to get out more. I could do with more exercise & skill development too, I say….

I really need to get out more.

I could do with more exercise & skill development too, I say. More drawing drills. Get my basics more solid. My writing, too.


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Originally posted on July 18, 2017 at 09:56AM. [Tumblr direct link]