just another insignificant rant on adulting

I’ve grown up fast but then my growth got stunted. Feels like.


I started reading magazines like Time and Reader’s Digest when I was, like, six years old. My physics teacher complimented me in high school that I understood basic concepts so quickly, but then warned that I was having trouble going deeper in my understandings. I went on to spend six years in undergraduate college. (Graduated, too. Barely.) And now I’m almost 37 years old and still living in my mom’s house.

Yeah sure all things considered comparatively speaking I’m making upper middle class income. But working two full-time jobs. Writing mostly from home. But yeah still though.


There are many things I should be grateful for. And I am. But still I also mustn’t delude myself into believing my life is absolutely perfect. Nor that all problems can be solved by taking six hour mid afternoon naps.

I’m exaggerating of course. Heh.


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Originally posted on August 07, 2017 at 04:45AM. [Tumblr direct link]

In my 12-year career I’ve always been afraid of getting fired, and having gone through over 12…

In my 12-year career I’ve always been afraid of getting fired, and having gone through over 12 employers in 12 years it appears obvious that it has been a self-defeating prophecy.

Also I find it quite interesting that it’s been over 12 years since I graduated from college. Quite interesting indeed.


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Originally posted on July 24, 2017 at 10:04AM. [Tumblr direct link]

Should lay off the infosnacks & info-junkfoods. Focus on consuming heavier meals. Actual books…

Should lay off the infosnacks & info-junkfoods. Focus on consuming heavier meals. Actual books in other words. Academic-level textbooks. Not necessarily academia though. But something like David Weinberger’s “Everything Is Miscellaneous” and Zeynep Tukfeci’s “Twitter and Teargas”.


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Originally posted on July 18, 2017 at 07:02PM. [Tumblr direct link]

I really need to get out more. I could do with more exercise & skill development too, I say….

I really need to get out more.

I could do with more exercise & skill development too, I say. More drawing drills. Get my basics more solid. My writing, too.


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Originally posted on July 18, 2017 at 09:56AM. [Tumblr direct link]

I think I want to sleep all the time because everything I really want to do I’m not supposed…

I think I want to sleep all the time because everything I really want to do I’m not supposed to do, or there’s something else that I should be doing instead, and so I wind up feeling like I don’t want to do anything and so I sleep…


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Originally posted on April 28, 2017 at 01:11PM. [Tumblr direct link]

I enjoy drawing daily. I really do. (draft Ello post, unposted)

I enjoy drawing daily. I really do.
At some moments it feels like a burden but each day as I post it, like, it feels good to see that I’ve managed to draw something that I cannot be ashamed of, perhaps sometimes even be proud of. Even though my drawing time never really cuts into my working time, where most of my time is wasted by other procrastination times such as watching YouTube videos and reading articles that have nothing to do with the day-job blog posts that I’m supposed to be doing but these veerings & stumblings on the Internet take up way, way more time in aggregate than any drawing I do, my daily drawings take up almost none of my time. And yet…
Lately I tend to draw two drawings a day then I take a break. I’ve been wanting to draw several drawings in a day so that I can draw something complex over the course of several days; such as “a full musician”, an “evil train”, or a typewriter–darn a typewriter seems more complex for me to draw than it should I’d thought I’d be able to draw a typewriter real quick but it seems no…
I need to produce more blog posts and faster. They’re the ones making real money. The drawings… the drawings are just hobby and they take up no time. What’s really taking up my time is all these social media… but I do research on social media and the Web if I go offline I can’t write because I can’t access data and…
I don’t know.
Sorry this is just a stream of consciousness I ought to edit this at least give it one top-to-bottom read before I publish or perhaps one complete rewrite just to be safe before I publish but….
Uh.

 


 

Written as a blog draft/Ello post draft in Evernote at December 06, 2016 at 06:13PM Open in Evernote