Managing expectations is a sore point for me. A lot of the pain comes from my inability to say no, my fear to disappoint.

The fear to disappoint becomes a self-defeating prophecy. Coupled with how easily it is to scare/intimidate me (”gertak”) into saying yes.

(I’ve given up trying to say no, more or less.)

Must I do better? Of course. Will I do better? I …don’t know.

I hope I can. I’m trying.

(though it kinda feels like I’m failing.)

(Originally composed as a twit storm. Skipping the storm for now.)

When you’ve truly found your passion, not even your closest family or spouse can possibly understand what it is. And as much as they want to support you, to understand, they never will and they will subconsciously fight you. Every step of the way.

It is not their fault. It is not your fault. This battle will be fought anyway.

A thought after watching “Steve Jobs” (2015) just now on cable. DISCLAIMER: the above is just a theory, a gut feeling. Not proven empirically yet.

Two Types of Women (…and Men)

Even after flying to different countries for women — if I find something that intrigues me, I’m very persistent — I realized that women can, when looking as generally as possible, be placed into two categories. The first, women who suck the drive for life — and everything else of any value — right out of you.

And, more importantly, the second, women who not only make you want a better life, but make you believe that a better life is actually possible.

Every single woman in the world falls into one of these two categories — no exceptions. However, a woman who falls into a certain category for one individual can fall into the other for someone else — our types are personal after all.

From The Good Men Project: “There is Only One Type of Woman Worth Chasing in This Life”